There’s Nothing To Fear But Fear Itself

Fear dominates my life. Always has. Probably always will. And it has raised it’s ugly head again recently. Even though I can’t do much about it, I’m struggling to just accept what I can control and get on with living.

Even being greeted almost daily by glorious sunrises, it’s not lightening my heart.

It would be a lot worse without this delightful welcome to the day from nature and being able to encounter it via a bike ride.

Dino‘s imminent demise is playing on my mind. It doesn’t make sense. She cost less than 10,000 yen. We have spent nearly 30 times that trying to keep her alive, but can’t afford to continue doing so now.

But I can’t do much about anything. In fact, I’ve done pretty much all I can. Now, I must just accept situations, take actions I am capable of taking and otherwise just keep my nose down and arse up.

AFTERNOON UPDATE:

Mrs. Kangaeroo paid a visit to Dino in the Yokohama Bird Clinic hospital where she has been receiving treatment since the start of August.

She remains unresponsive to veterinary care. Dino is basically incurable.

We are going to bring her home.

Amid that rather saddening news, it will still nice to get out on the bike and enjoy the summer, even if it’s closer to blistering hot than warmth. Still, it’s an autumnal heat now, with the edge taken off even if the temperature is close to 40 degrees.

EVENING UPDATE:

If nothing else, it was a great day for cycling and catching some fantastic views.

I got to see a glorious sunset that enticed me to stop any number of times on a post-work ride.

In our old place, I often used to be able to see the sunset, but we can’t get views easily now.

So it’s sheer delight when I can catch them on camera. I also learned that my phone camera can, indeed, zoom!